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Europe Blog, part 1 - France, from Paris to St. Jean de Luz [03 Jul 2008|05:46pm]
ok, i finally got off of my lazy butt and created a blog displaying the hilarity and beauty of the trip to france and spain. i wasn't really sure how to do this because there are A LOT OF PICTURES. in this blog, i managed to cut the number of pictures down to 36, highlighting the most important landmarks and moments, etc.
i have links to more pictures that haven't been resized in my photobucket, so just follow the links there. please note that i still have yet to put all of the france pictures into that account, so i apologize about that. all of the spain ones are uploaded, however.

LET'S BEGIN!

France - from Paris to St. Jean de Luz.



Day 1 - We arrive in Paris at the Charles de Gaulle airport at about 7 in the morning. We linger around the airport for two hours until our tour guide, Sandra, arrives. Sandra is a Spanish woman currently living in Madrid, although she grew up near Barcelona. She was gorgeous and she had a deep voice and her accent was really heavy. Her sense of humor was also very dry, and a lot of people didn't get it except for me and a few others. xD

Anyway, this pretty much goes without saying, but we were tired as hell and we just wanted to get on the bus and go to sleep. At that point, we'd been on a plane ride from Charlotte NC to New York, and the flight time from New York to Paris was roughly 6 hours. Not bad, but when you're so excited that you're about to piss yourself, the lack of sleep on the plane begins to bite you in the ass.
Our tour begins with a bus ride around Paris, and we arrive at our hotel in Montmartre, the 'rebel' region of Paris, riddled with art, music, and cafe's. It's the epitome of city life and I adore it.
... However, small hotel is RLY RLY SMALL, OK. You have never seen sidewalks so small in your life. Imagine 50 kids and adults getting off a bus, clogging up the sidewalks with our luggage, trying to squeeze into the hallway slash lobby of this tiny, tiny hotel. It was chaotic, really, but we did it in a timely fashion as we didn't want to piss off the locals since we were in their house. |D
We all think this is the end of day one - we were sorely, sorely mistaken. Hot, tired, aggravated and starving, Sandra gave us one hour to freshen up so that we could come back, ready to walk around Paris for the remainder of the day.

Yeah.

The remainder of the day.

It's 10:30 AM at this point.

We were in for a long, long, LONG day.

We went to a number of parks and such along the way, and we got to experience the metro system. Yeah. Also hilarious. Imagine trying to squeeze 50 people onto a metro car in 10 seconds. You made friends with a lot of people in the metro - I mean, it's kind of hard not to when you're rubbing asses with people and you have dudes in your personal space all of the time. It was awesome, though, seriously. And FAST. VERY FAST. The metro trains in Spain didn't have shit on the ones in Paris.

Two things I noticed about France from the get-go: everything is tiny, and everything is FAST. I fit right in with the people there - they walk ridiculously fast to nowhere. XD




So, yes. Lots of walking in Paris, that day. My feet were so sore, and we all wanted to go back to our shoddy hotel as quickly as possible. Our final destination was Notre Dame. It was impressive, but the amount of tourists just take away from its beauty, a little.

Best conversation happened here, though;

"Sandra, why are there nets and ropes all over the entrance of the Notre Dame?!"
"So de birds wun't sheet on eet, that's why."

XD;; After Notre Dame, we go to eat some weird pizza at a restaurant called Flam's. It wasn't the greatest thing. In fact, I ate a slice and just went to sleep on my plate. I had a plate mark across my face when I woke up. It was epic.

End of day one.

Day 2 - Our plans for the day included going to the magnificent Louvre and the Eiffel Tower. We were up by 7 and out of there by 8, and we hopped on a bus to the Louvre for a bit of sightseeing, and free time.

This day was one of my favorite days on the whole trip.

Our local tour guide for the day was Pierre, a little French man from outside of Paris I think. He was really nice and provided a lot of information. On the way to the Louvre, we saw Napoleon's palace, and the grand opera theatre. We also rode by the Eiffel tower for picture opportunities, and we were dropped off at the Louvre between noon and 1pm.



Sandra left us with recommendations as to what we should look for in the Louvre. I didn't stay long because I wanted to explore on my own, but I did see the Mona Lisa and some of Rembrandt's artwork, among a few others. I was with a small group; Relse, Debbie, my Mom, and two of the younger boys, Alejandro and Alex. We headed out after about 45 minutes for something to eat - I ate the best croque monsieur I've ever had in my life. Seriously. Every croque monsieur I had after that didn't have crap on the one I had in this little hole in the wall cafe next to the Louvre.

We had 4 hours to do whatever we wanted, so Relse and I, shopping maniacs, went into every store to look around. We came across one dress store with these gorgeous dresses that were handmade. There was a little black woman inside who I don't think was originally from Paris, because her accent was very different, but she was so, so nice. She was measuring me up on all sides and was handing dresses to me left and right. I finally tried on one dress that fit the best, and I bought it. I noticed that some of the handywork was falling apart, so I asked her if it could be fixed with the intention of my Mom hopefully being able to do it later.

She took it back from me and said "Je peux pour toi, bien sur! C'est un plaisir aider une bonne fille." [She basically said "I can fix it for you; It's such a pleasure to help a nice girl visiting Paris."] That made my day. She just sat there sewing and sewing for 20 minutes straight until everything was perfect, and she had a smile on her face the whole time. She even gave us free stuff. xD I can't get over how nice she was. Little things like that just make your day in a foreign country where everything is so huge and different.

After that, we just had a good time looking in stores and expensive boutiques, and $28,000 Rolex watches. It was amusing. xD

When the free time was up, we all got on a bus to go eat dinner at a gorgeous restaurant - we had chicken and a type of potatoes that was so delicious. <3 I also shared an AppleTini with Relse. OM NOM!

Soon after, we were on our way to the Eiffel Tower to go to the very TOP. :D It was amazing, to put it shortly. I loved every second of it. We ended the night with a boat ride around the city. By then, I didn't much care for sightseeing so I slept on the boat because I was so tired. It was really nice though. |D




I wake up and we have to take the metro back to Montmartre; when we get back, it's close to 12AM . I'm starving like a crazy person, so I decide to order my food from a crazy man in this tiny little kebab shop. God, he was so funny. I was sitting there translating for everyone, so when people ordered their food, they were speaking all slowly like "JUUUUH VOOUUUDRAIIIIIS AAA KEBAB PLZ." I was the last to order my food, so when I ordered with fluent French, he asks "How come you don't speak like them?" and I go "Because I'm in your house now, I gotta speak your language properly if I want respect!" He just laughed and winked at me while he was making my kebab.

Btw, BEST FUCKING KEBAB WITH FRIES COVERED IN GLOOPY MAYONNAISE I'VE EVER HAD. <3

End of day 2.

Day 3 - Today, we leave the city of Paris and we embark on a journey by bus to the following locations; Chambord and Chenonceau. Our final destination would be a hotel just outside of the Cognac winery.

This day was very relaxing in comparison to previous days. We stayed on a quiet bus for a few hours catching up on sleep until we arrived to Chambord, a private estate that doubles as a gorgeous castle in a rural area of France. We could not go into this magnificent castle since people actually live there, but we did get some beautiful pictures.




Soon after this, we were on our way to Chenonceau, a HUGE castle reminiscent of that of Sleeping Beauty's castle. It was so gorgeous. Unfortunately, I could not take photos inside, but I do have some videos that I can upload if people are interested.




That place was amazing. ; ; Home of Catherine de Medici and others.

I also got more thumbs up from the ladies behind the counter at the local restaurant for being able to translate for everyone. XD YAY.

We arrive at a very nice hotel later that evening for free time before dinner; Sandra recommended a shopping center near a roundabout down the street... well, being the adventurers that we are, myself, Kristina, Thomas, Kristina's family, and a few others decided to talk this long walk to the centers for nothing. xD We got caught in the rain and we hid under a gas station for shelter like a bunch of idiots. It was absolutely hilarious.



This isn't a very good picture because it was from Kristina's camera and not mine. Lol, sorry Kris! On the bottom row, there's Relse, Carol, Dabney and myself. Then there's Ellen, Judy and I think Jasmine on the second row, and there's Kristina [lmao at that face], Nancy, James, and a pissed looking Jillian. HA. xD

Then we all walk back and pass out in our beds. LOL.

End of day 3.

Day 4 - THE DAY OF THE COGNAC. This day was somewhat relaxing, if not extremely interesting.

We hop on a bus around 9 or so to go to the Cognac winery facility. Admittedly, the tour was deathly boring, and I'm not even going to lie, I was just waiting to try some freakin' liquor.

Ha. Ha. HA. *ded*

Here's me and Kristina before trying the Cognac [btw, she's so pretty. ; ;]:



Ok, and here's my face after tasting it.



ROFL. And it gets worse. Let's take note of a couple of things. I am a female. I am 4'11. I am 93 pounds. My alcohol tolerance is... well, guys, I DON'T HAVE ANY. I take one shot of Cognac, and I'm alright... then everyone's like "HEY JEN, COME TRY IT WITH GINGERALE, YOU'LL ACTUALLY BE ABLE TO DRINK IT LULULUL."

Yeeeeah. The second shot put me over the mark, I was in the place stumbling and Kristina helped walk me outside so that I wouldn't embarrass myself too badly. I think that was my first time drinking straight liquor, and alcohol in France has a particularly HIGH AS FUCK alcohol percentage. Lmao. I even made a video of myself because I was a tad disoriented, but I'm not gonna share that with you guys. XD TOO BAD.

Unfortunately, I felt miserable for the rest of the day. When you drink alcohol and you're pissed drunk, it helps to always be moving. Yeah. Can't really do too much moving on a bus ride. So I had to sleep it off as much as possible.

Later we arrive in Saint, and gorgeous little town with Roman ruins that we stopped to look at. I also had A DELICIOUS AS HELL baguette sandwich with ham and butter and cheese. Had to translate for everyone again. It was chaos, and I had to order my food last again with Kristina so we could help everyone. BUT GOD. SO GOOD. ;3; I want one right now.

Here's a picture of the ruins;



Pretty sweet.

After lots of picture taking and walking around, we hop back on the bus for more sleep until we arrive in Biarritz, a nice little town on the coast of the Atlantic.

We arrive and Sandra recommends that we walk to the city center, which is a 3 mile walk. Again, being stupid and adventurous, I briskly walk with Kristina, Thomas, and Kris' family in my flip flops.

WRONG.

I get a huge blister midway and I endure it for the rest of the walk there, but I ended up having to go barefoot on the walk back.

Which was longer than the way we came.

So about four miles.

Barefoot.

Stepping on rocks and dodging poop along the way.

Much pissitivity and angst. But I didn't cry. I wanted to, and I had to bite my lip and my fist, but I didn't cry. We were 30 minutes late for dinner, and we had spaghetti.

You will never see me eat spaghetti in large amounts SO QUICKLY ever, ever, ever again. I needed it after that walk. There was also a funny conversation at the table again.

Rebeckkah: "I wanna go to a night club in Spain."
Sandra: "Yuu shuld do eet. Lots off options and such."
Rebeckkah: "Are there any drugs?"
Sandra: "HAHAHAHA Oh mai Gohd, why? You want some? 3 Euro a piece in most places for pills. I can surely get chu some."
Jen: *laughing ass off*
Rebeckkah: ".............."



Ha. It was pretty, crappy experience and all.
End of day four.

Day 5 - Out of Biarritz and onto St. Jean de Luz. [I loved St. Jean de Luz btw, it was a neat little town and it has my last name in it. XD] That morning, Sandra took everyone to the city center if they wanted to go and allowed others to sleep in if they wanted to.

Yeah. You bet that my ass slept in that morning. And it was so nice. I slept in until 10:30. No waking up at 7am, for once. SO NICE. I was in a good mood, that day. |D

Lots of bus riding today as well. Our first stop of the day was in St. Jean de Luz, our last time in France. I was extremely sad to leave a country where I didn't feel lost because I could ask people questions and just talk to them. St. Jean de Luz was so pretty, and there was also a beach there. I bought a bikini there from a nice lady in a local shop there, too. <3 We also had lunch.

There were a lot of nice people in France. If people bumped into you, they always said 'pardon.' If you tried to speak to them in French no matter how crappy it sounded, they treated you with respect. The food was amazing, the fashion was amazing, the people were interesting and usually kind. I was incredibly sad to leave. :C

That's all for now; I'll have part 2 with Spain up later on. : D Enjoy the pictures.

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YEA SO [03 Jul 2008|03:13pm]
i got my stuff from hollister yesterday and it all fits except for the pair of shorts that i bought. ;3; they're 0's but they fit like freakin' 3's. that's really frustrating. and the jeans i'm keeping, but i have to wear a belt with 'em because they're SUPAH DUPAH low rise and i don't want people seein' my crack when i bend over. |D but they'z still sexy.

i also bought one shirt that i didn't realize was sheer. and it's WHITE. -_-; ERGH. it doesn't look so bad with layers but... ergh. i don't really like sheer, mainly because it's so thin and it can get torn easily... but oh well, i'll keep it. i like layering.

everything else fits perfectly. el yay! shipping the pants back tomorrow for either an exchange for another pair of shorts or a skirt. maybe another skirt. ah crap, i should just get a refund, lol.

AND GOD, METAL GEAR RAMBLINGS. david and i are almost through with snake eater and the statement still stands that i LUB SNAKEY. he's like a uh... a giant neopet that you have to feed [constantly in some cases, jesus christ] and stitch up and give medicine to and ergh i love it so so so so much. i've been watching david play the whole time - when we finish this, i'm going to play the second one all the way through so he can watch me.

i don't really know what to make of eva though. i don't really like her too much but snake's reaction to her is always incredibly hilarious. xD

yeeeeah i've been meaning to swing by kohl's and submit my application but i've been sick to my stomach all day. y__y; ugh. TOMORROW I WILL. i have to. i need a job. :C NEEEEDZ. ;3; also, much to my delight, my brother has a friend that works there. *thrust* CONNECTIONS. and she's really nice - she went with us to the jet concert a year ago and i liked her. so i gotta get that application in soon. ;_;

ok yeah i'm gonna go writhe in pain from stomach aches. ;3; boo.

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FUN ON YOUTUBE. [01 Jul 2008|02:05pm]
first of all, holy shit:



best impression ever. i was ROLLING.

also, i've been listening to a bunch of weird mashups lately.



i don't like britney, shakira, or the beegee's individually but when you put 'em all together, it's pretty cool shit.

but then there are good mashups by default just because they have the peas in them:



i'm weird.

off to stuff my face, now.

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an actual entry for once? LONG BEWARE OF TL;DR [30 Jun 2008|09:41pm]
yeah, seriously. i thought i'd type an actual interesting journal for once. although i guess it depends on what you find interesting. you be the judge.

i wasn't having a good day friday or saturday, which explains the emo entries earlier. friday was just... annoying. i got annoyed by everything. i wasted a buck on a nasty assed burrito at taco bell and i was pretty much broke [i hate being broke, man] so it upset me. i also had to pay for 3 other people; i didn't mind it, but it made me broke. i also drove david and the guys around to castle heights to watch them skate only to get thrown out an hour later because apparently, skateboarding on solid pavement is vandalism although they weren't fucking with the railings or the benches. also a contributing annoyance, but it was either staying or probably getting the cops called on us. david wasn't in the best of moods all day either. it was just a bad day.

saturday, i bitched david out for not trying to get a job or go back to school and for not trying to get his license. i told him that i couldn't pay for him all of the time and that i can't drive him around once i begin going to USCL - that's 40 minutes each day. a huge difference to the 4 mile drive to and back from highschool. my gas tank can't handle it. i also got into a huge slump of wanting to get a job so that i can have my own money for gas; i applied for JCpenney's and books a million, and i need to drop off my application at kohl's. i also need to pick up an application at the cookie store just for the hell of it. david got one today... i figured i'd hold back since he needs the opportunity more than i do.

my dad doesn't even want me to get a job. i want one for the experience and for money but i don't think that anyone will hire me for some reason. he basically came to the conclusion that my gas payments will be taken care of as long as i do good in school. fair enough i guess, i just feel bad because they have to pay for their own gas. y_y;

anyway... i was just in a shitty mood saturday. i meant what i said to david but i shouldn't have come off so short and pissy about it. i feel bad about it, but... oh well. it's over and we're fine now.

in other news, we have mice in our house. nasty, filthy vermin. it's disgusting. i love mice and rats, but only when they're in pet stores. not in my room. not anywhere in the house. y___y; my mom caught 2 this week, one of which i had the misfortune of seeing. i was sitting at the desktop and mom set a mouse trap near the hard drive [on the floor] and i look down, and i just see this fat little mouse body slumped underneath the trap. ;_____; YUCK, MAN. there's still another one around, because i heard it scratching at the food in the trap near my bed. yea. fun times. i stayed awake in my bed horrified for 2 hours yesterday morning. :|

in other, other news, me and david have been playing some mad MGS. god, i fucking love snake. we're playing snake eater at the moment because i can't save the 1st game on my memory card, and i don't feel like buying a ps1 card just for a single game, so i'll have to live with playing through a chunk of it and not seeing it all the way through. snake eater is amazing though, i love it. it's probably one of the best games i've ever played... and snake is so damn sexy. SEX IN CAMOUFLAGE. and so angsty, gotta heart the angst. i just wanna give him a hug. ;3;

aaaaaaaand in other, other, OTHER news, i bought some things with some leftover money on the hollister website. i think my 100 bucks was well spent; i got 7 things from the clearance section. i also got a pair of shorts from aeropostale today for half off, and some really, really cheap cork heels from american eagle. SCORE. I HEART BARGAIN SHOPPING. and nailpolish for a buck from claire's. el yay!

i've been buying a crapload of things lately - it's all the graduation money i got. haha.

here's the stuff i bought, for those interested in seeing them.
SHOPPING GALORE! )

i wanna do MGS fanart. >______> I THINK I WILL, BAI!

EDIT:


What Jen Means



You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.

You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.

You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.



You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.



You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.



HAHA yeah i dunno. fitting? discuss. >:O

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another meme. [28 Jun 2008|11:23pm]
1.Where did you kiss the last person you kissed?
on the neck.

2.What’s the greatest thing that happened to you today?
er. i applied for 3 jobs and my mom bought me pickles.

3. How many TRUE best friends do you have?
4.

4.Would you rather get up early or sleep in?
is that a serious question?

5.Tell me about the shirt you’re wearing?
solid grey. plain. costed 3 bucks. nothing special.

6. What are you excited about right now?
looking forward to my clothes arriving from Hollister.

8. Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth?
cry over the truth.

9. What’s on your bedroom floor right now?
coach purse, another purse, chess board, cd cases, sketch pad, wallet

10. Who’s the last person you got into an argument with?
david.

11. Do you trust people?
sometimes not at all. other times, too much.

12. If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move?
paris, france.

13. Your favorite number?
7.

14. Could you go a day without eating?
i've done it before.

15. How much do looks matter to you in a guy/girl?
not a whole lot, to be honest. i just happen to get lucky and get guys that are amazing who i think are also gorgeous. <3

16. Do you like anybody right now?
YEAH, YOU.

17. When was the last time you had your hair cut?
march.

18. Would you rather be mad or sad?
mad, because i don't stay mad for long. i hate being sad. sadness lingers for hours, days, months...

19. Does it take a lot to make you cry?
sometimes it does, sometimes it doesn't.

20. Whats the best feeling in the world?
getting that batch of inspiration that keeps you moving for days, where you're high up in the clouds mentally. that's awesome. i miss that.

21. Are you close with your mom?
yeah.

22. Are your parents strict?
they're firm but fair.

23. Do you tell your parents everything?
no.

25. Name some fears you have:
sharks, being decapitated [i'm fucking weird], failure

26. Does the thought of marriage scare you?
no.

27. How many kids do you want?
at least 2, but no more than 3.

28. What’s your favorite season?
summer.

29. What’s your favorite color to wear?
i wear everything.

30. Who was the last person in your bedroom?
me. other than me, my mom. lawl.

31. What are you doing today?
sitting on my ass, applying for jobs, sulking like a little bitch.

35. Do you get bored easily?
unfortunately.

36. What’s something that someone can do that really bothers you?
being an idiot. being an ass. being ignorant. being an arrogant cock. talking about what you've got and expecting not to get hit.

37. Did you ever want to change your name when you were younger?
i don't think so.

38. Do you wish you were famous?
for a day. then i'd like to go back to being invisible.

39. Do you make a wish at 11:11?
no.

40. When you go to the beach do you swim or lay out more?
lay out. i like swimming, but not in the ocean. i swim in pools.

41. Who’s the last text message you received from and what did it say?
from megan, saying 'why didnt tim call me back, wtf man.'

42. What are you freakishly obsessed with?
david.

43. What’s your favorite song at the moment?
'drift and die' by puddle of mudd

44. Do you like going to the mall to shop or just shopping online?
let's see, both have their pros and cons. <3
shopping at the mall is more fun, but more expensive. the bright side is, you get your merchandise right away. shopping online is easier and saves time, and it's cheaper. but you have to wait weeks to get your stuff. ;3; it's worth it in the end, though.

45. Can music affect your mood?
usually for the better.

46. What piercings do you want?
i want my navel pierced and i want my nose pierced... and a 3rd set of holes in my ears, too.

47. Do you have cankles?
hahaha no.

48. Have you ever been in a cave?
yeah, man.

49. Ever eaten a bug?
probably not on purpose. lol.

50. When will you hang out with the person you last kissed next?
maybe tomorrow. i don't know.

51. Are you in a good mood? Right now?
not really. i'm pretty miserable.

52. Do you look up to anyone?
my brother.

53. Would you rather skydive or bungee jump?
skydive cuz i've already been bungee jumping.

54. Do you like snakes?
i love snakes. ;3;

55. What’s one place you would like to visit?
uuuuum. anywhere in the UK, at the moment.

56. Do you like waffles?
I LOVE WAFFLES. ;o;

57. Does the number 23 have any significance to you?
no, unless you're jim carrey.

58. Be honest, do you like people in general?
not really.

59. What color are the walls in your bedroom?
dark green in the game room, and beige in the drawing room.

60. Do you think Starbucks is expensive?
christ, yes.

61. Are you named after a family member?
no.

62. Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass or fail?
pass.

63. Do you want to tell someone something?
not really.

64. Last restaurant you went to?
taco bell. fucking mistake.

65. What is the weather like today?
humid... in the 90's, i think. windy.

66. What happened yesterday?
i don't want to talk about it.

67. What would you do with five million dollars?
buy a house in france to go to every summer, buy a house in columbia, pay off my college tuition, buy clothes, buy art supplies, buy a boston terrier and a bulldog, buy another car, n' donate the rest.

68. How many hours did you sleep last night?
10.

69. Any upcoming concerts you want to attend?
none in particular but i'd like to go to a concert soon.

70. Who’s the last person that you felt was stalking you?
lol wut?

71. Have you ever been on your school’s track team?
no.

72. Have you cried today?
yeah.

73. Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
i'm positive.

74. Does it annoy you when someone says they’ll call, but never do?
immensely.

75. What did you dress up as for Halloween?
nothing.

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[28 Jun 2008|07:35pm]
i'm thoroughly depressed. i feel like a shitty person. david's probably sick of me. i know i'm sick of me. i want out of the house but gas is too expensive. i want a job. i applied at a bookstore, a department store, and a clothing store. i need to apply to other stores. i hope i get a call from someone as soon as possible. i want a job. i want money to pay for gas. i want my own money.

fucking shit.

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[28 Jun 2008|01:50am]
right, so i can't sleep.

this sucks.

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[27 Jun 2008|10:52pm]
i'm not going to be on AIM for the rest of the night and probably not for the majority of tomorrow.

i just feel like taking a night off of the computer.

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FREAKIN' MEMES! [26 Jun 2008|11:50pm]
FREAKIN' MEMES YOINKED FROM MAH NINJA AND KAI!

01) Bold what is true about you.
02) Underline what is half true.
03) Italicize what you wish was true about you.
04) Add one true thing about you to the end of the list.
05) Tag five LJ friends: NO, BITCH.
06) Ask me anything about the bold/italicized/underlined.

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch much TV these days.
• I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
• I've tried marijuana.
• I've watched porn movies.
• I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually always the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
• I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
• I have broken someone's bones.
• I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
• I hate the rain.
• I'm paranoid at times.
• I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need/want money right now.
• I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have fresh breath in the morning.
I have long hair.
• I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
• I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way that I look.
• I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
• I think prostitution should be legalized.
• I slept with a roommate.
• I have a hidden talent.
• I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I have kissed someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
• I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop and/or window shop.
I'm obsessed with my Livejournal.
• I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
• I'm a pretty good dancer.
• I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
• I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
• I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
• I have changed a diaper before.
I have a lot to learn.
• I am shy around the opposite sex.
I’m online 24/7, even as an away message.
I have at least 5 away messages saved.
I have tried alcohol or drugs before. [alcohol, not drugs.]
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. [someone's crush, although i didn't know it at the time, lawlz. funny story about that, really.]
• I own the "South Park" movie.
I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Livejournal.
• I enjoy some country music.
I would die for my best friend(s).
I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
• I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I am happy at this moment.
• I’m obsessed with guys.
• Democrat.
• Conservative Republican.
• I am punk rockish.
• I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
I study for tests most of the time.
• I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
• I can work on a car.
• I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
• I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I am proficient on a musical instrument.
• I hate office jobs.
• I went to college out of state.
I am adopted.
• I am a pyro.
I have thrown up from crying too much.
• I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
• I fall for the worst people and have been hurt every time. (ie: Unrequited love.)
I adore bright colors.
• I usually like covers better than originals.
• I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
• I can pick up things with my toes.
• I can't whistle.
• I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve ever written in.
• I talk in my sleep.
• I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
• I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
• I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
• If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
• I've cosplayed or know what cosplaying is.
• I have been to over 15 conventions.
• I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
• I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
I'm an artist. I like to draw.
• I am ambidextrous.
I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.
• If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
• I have terrible teeth.
I did this Meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.
• I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
• I have lived in either three different states or countries.
• I am extremely flexible.
I want to own my own business.
• I smoke.
I spend way too much time on the computer.
Nobody has ever said I'm normal.
Sad movies, games, fics and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.
• I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
• I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
• I don't like it when people are displeased or seem displeased with me.
• I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
• I have played strip poker with someone else before.

• I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
• I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
• I can't stand being alone.
• I have at least one obsession at any given time.
• I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
• I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
• I'm a judgmental asshole.
• I'm a HUGE drama-queen.

• I have traveled on more than one continent.
• I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.
• I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
• I can speak more than one language.
• I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
• I would rather read than watch TV.
• I like reading fact more than fiction.
• I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
• I have no piercings.
• I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
• I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.
• I've been married and am now divorced.
• There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.
• I like most animals better than most people.
• I own a collection of retro games consoles.
• The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.
• I have hit someone with a dead fish.
• I have written/read erotic stories.
• I am compulsively honest.
• I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
• I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers. And not been ashamed.
• I have gone from wishing I was a boy to reveling in being a girl to feeling like a boy again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.
• I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
• I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
• I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
• I dislike milk.
• I obsessively wash my hands.
• I always carry that something significant around with me.
• Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.
I love talking about myself to the point where I need to be stopped.
• I often sing whenever I can and I'm good at it too.
• I have experienced some type of traumatic abuse in my lifetime.
• I've experienced visions and dreams which I know/believe are from my past life.
• I have deja vu so vivid that I feel faint.
• I love Harry Potter.
• My parents are not together.
• I don't believe in love.
• I hate people who walk incredibly slow.
• I have extreme contempt for the vast majority of people.
• Sometimes I don't shower before work.
• To me, procrastination is like a disease!
• I want to sleep now.
• I enjoy watching two guys kissing each other.
• I am a typical Gemini born.
• The more I searched the less I've found.
• As a child I was a huge crybaby.
• I'm feeling alone very fast.
• I'm living in a fairytale and I'm the noble Princess, who saves the day!
• I always have to spell my (real) name.
• I want to die in my sleep.
• I have a strange laugh.
• If they let me, I can sleep 12 hours in a row.

• I wish I could transform myself into a boy every now and then.
• I dance in the rain and don't feel like a fool.
• I have a favorite stuffed animal that I will not ever get rid of.
• I sing 80's hair metal songs into my hairbrush on a daily basis.
• I have a speech disorder.
• I'm infatuably attracted to men with long, blond, curly hair.
• I sometimes have the urge to take a shot of whiskey or open a can of beer at odd times in the day.
I have a weakness for guys with nice bodies
• I plan to move to another country at some point in my life.
• Ever wanted to be a certain fictional character
• My dreams are so vivid, they feel real.
• I'm a huge geek, the comic-book and video game kind, not the smart kind.
• I can get jealous easily!
• My computer and harddrive are pretty much my most prized possessions.
• I prefer to buy CDs than download music, free or otherwise.

• I haven't had my first kiss yet.
• I have had teeth pulled.
• I listen to music in at least five different languages.
• I think boys/guys/men are icky.
• I judge boys by the amount of satire they use.
*I'm have materialistic tendencies.

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1) How old were you?
THEN: 8
NOW: 18

2) Where did you go to school?
THEN: St. Anne's Catholic School
NOW: University of South Carolina Lancaster

3) Where did you work?
THEN: LOL.
NOW: A commission here or there. No work yet.

4) Where did you live?
THEN: Rock Hill.
NOW: Still Rock Hill. Unfortunately.

5) How was your hairstyle?
THEN: Short and naturally blonde with bangs.
NOW:  Short, artificially blonde with choppy bangs. XD

6) Did you wear braces?
THEN: No.
NOW: Not anymore.

7) Did you wear contacts?
THEN: Nah.
NOW: I wear contacts now.

8) Did you wear glasses?
THEN: Yeah.
NOW: I have a pair now that I wear around the house.

9) Who was your best friend?
THEN: I don't think I had one back then.
NOW: Manj, David, Seth, and Shante are my best friends now. [info]

10) Which of your pets was still alive?
THEN: Trixie was alive and Bailey was a puppy.
NOW: Trixie is gone now, but Bailey is still here. ;3;

11) Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend?
THEN: Haha.
NOW: David.

12) Who was your celebrity crush?
THEN: I don't think I had one.
NOW: I still don't have one.

13) Who was your regular-person crush?
THEN: None.
NOW: Lawl, David.

14) How many piercings did you have?
THEN: None.
NOW: Two per ear.

15) How many tattoos did you have?
THEN: None.
NOW: None. I want one though. I need time and money, first.

16) What was your favourite band/singer?
THEN: Uhm, probably the Backstreet Boys. Lmao.
NOW: Too many to name.

17) Had you smoked cigarettes?
THEN: Nah.
NOW: No.

18) Had you got drunk?
THEN: Nah.
NOW: God yes.

19) Had you DRIVEN?
THEN: Nah.
NOW: I drive every damn where now. ;3; ALL MONEY GOES TO FOOD AND GAS. And condoms.

20) If so which car?
THEN: NOOONE.
NOW: Toyota Yaris.

21) Looking back are you where you thought you'd be in ten years time?
Pretty sure I wanted to be an artist and draw Pokemon all day. Lol. Now I've declared a major in business.

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schedule [26 Jun 2008|02:29pm]
here's my schedule for the semester;

Anthropology 101 - Mon. Wed. Fri. 9:00-9:50 AM
Basic Drawing - Tues. 2:30-5:00 PM
French - Mon. Wed. 11:00-12:15 PM
Geology - Tues. 5:30-6:45 PM and Thurs. 7:00-8:15 PM
Math - Mon. through Thurs. at 1:00-2:15 PM

and a visual schedule because it helps slow kids like me grasp an understanding of what they signed up for and what it looks like during the week.



it's pretty weird as far as times go but i really don't care. i'm ahead of most people by a couple of hours in credits so it'll be worth it later. i'm trying to knock out all of my basic shit here instead of having to worry about it at USC - then i can do just about whatever i want without having to worry.

i know one thing, though. being able to sleep in until 12 on some days will be niiiiiiice. :D i tried not to get any friday classes but anthropology was the only behavioral science that actually interested me because i'm sick of psychology bullshit.

also, i woke up at 2 today. ;_; fail.
gonna go lay out nao.

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[25 Jun 2008|10:17pm]
yeah. so orientation for the past 2 days was interesting.

my group leader was matt, kelsi's boyfriend. he went to prom with us all. xD it was one of those 'small world' kind of things. xD it was funny; he made the situation more bearable because there was a lot to take in, and he's such a cool fucker.

but ugh, signing up for classes was a bitch but it's ok now i think. ._. my adviser is not the smartest man in the world. all i have to do is sit back and wait until classes start.

i met this really badass chick named megan, but i call her short megan because 'short' is her last name and it's just weird like that. xD i think she wants me to go to the beach with her sometime but i have to see if i have that day open. still, it'd be cool.

i'm excited about USCL - the people are generally really nice and they actually give you a straight answer and can get things handled efficiently. i had a really hard time registering for classes today because my adviser put me in classes that conflicted with each other and i didn't understand how to change them in the system, so i went all upset to admissions and they fixed it for me in 5 minutes with a new, printed schedule. it was really nice of them because i just wanted to go home at that point.

BLAAAAH. i'm going to go to sleep now. <3

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ugh. [23 Jun 2008|12:12am]
placement tests suck ass. i just had to take a math one online and of course, i did miserably. i have to take basic college math, it says. lol. i christmas treed it, but i seriously had no choice because i SUCK at algebra. i'm better at geometry, and i breeze through stats and probability. calculators also weren't permitted, so that's another downer. i'm just not a math person, clearly.

at least i won't have to worry about it at orientation. all i have to worry about there is english and foreign language, i believe. i need to study up on french and i'm not worried about english. i really don't care, i've got those two in the bag as far as i'm concerned. what could be harder than the AP exam, i took a year long class on that shit and i still did ok on some of it. hopefully i'll place into some way advanced shit to make up for my math grade, lmao. jesus christ, i'm so weird.

david also kicked my ass miserably with his SAT scores. i'm proud of him. i think all 3 combined he made over about an 1800 but with just the two it was 1250. i only made somewhere around 1050 or something because algebra kicks my ASS. it's frustrating. i suck ass at most tests. i honestly wondered how in the fuck USCL even accepted my sorry ass. my cumulative GPA is 3.8 but shit. SAT scores fail me.

enough self pity.

i got to see david this afternoon and as always, an afternoon with david always makes me feel better. we got through a chunk of the 1st MGS and i've preeeeetty much come to the realization that it's difficult NOT to love snake. i love it. <3 shitty ps1 graphics and all.

i think i'm gonna piss around w/ the tablet some. later folks.

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fuckin' stupid assed shit [22 Jun 2008|01:54pm]
god, i'm such a fucking moron. i really hate myself right now.

me and my mom woke up at about 10 to drive to USCL so that i'll know how to get there. on the way back i go "hey, i wanna go to the mall and get a pair of flip flops that i liked." so yeah. i go to the mall, park the car, pull out my wallet and fidget through it to make sure i have enough money, get out, lock all the doors, and slam them.

OH WAIT i locked my keys in the car.

i'm pretty sure you can imagine how much of a disaster this is. we're on the shitty side of town, my car's in the middle of the parking lot, mom's bitching at me at how much of a fucking moron i am, and we have no way of getting in contact with anyone because i didn't have my phone on me, and mom didn't have but like, 5 contacts in her phone. additionally, i fail at remembering phone numbers.

finally, after bitching at me for 20 minutes i decide to go in and at least get my flip flops. cuz i mean, shit. that's the reason why we went there. my mom paid 50 bucks for the flip flops as an honor roll present, and then we decide to ask for a phone book so we could call a cab.

we call a cab, and then she randomly flips out because she doesn't think we'll have enough money. i'm just desperately trying to tune her out and prevent myself from crying because i can't stand it when people flip the fuck out constantly. for the record, i wasn't worried about the cost because i had 50 dollars on me, and our house was 4 miles away, literally. in the end it came out to be like 18 or 19 bucks. so, jesus. all of the bitching for nothing.

i didn't have a spare car key on me for some reason. i guess i just never got one, i dunno. but i found one around the house so i've got one now.

it's just been a shitty day. not to mention i bumped my head really badly on the fridge so i have a knot on my head. it didn't help anything, really.

i don't think my mom's still mad at me but it doesn't make the day any less shitty because of how she was talking to me earlier. she kept saying shit like "are you fucking stupid or what? i can't believe you locked your fucking keys in the car, jesus." fjrkajgijraojgior. helping or hurting, seriously? so now i feel like a class A dumbass because she acted like she's never done that before. and maybe she hasn't, i dunno. i just didn't see the point at bitching at me in the parking lot for 20 straight minutes.

but whatever, now seems like a great time to play MGS.

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I BELLY FLOPPED INTO YOUR FIST LOL [20 Jun 2008|10:29pm]
david and i went shopping today. we love shopping. xD
bought a scarf and a bunch of shirts and a hoodie from victoria's secret; one shirt has pikachu farting out a rainbow. it's glorious, really.

not the point. david and i made a joint purchase and bought the MGS box set for 30 bucks. my interest for the series has always kind of lingered since i was 13 and first got my hands on gaming mags, but i never really got into it. recently, my interest was stemmed from erin's artwork and talk of the games, so me and the bee ehf figured 'what the hell, we need more games for the summer.'

SO GOOD JOB ERIN. xD so right now i'm holding onto the 1st and 2nd one, and david's probably playing snake eater as i type this.

i watched david play through the 1st one while i was waiting for the dye in my hair to develop. it looks addicting as hell, i was sad when he wanted to turn it off and play brawl. i'd play it right now but it's bed time. i'm having trouble typing this because i'm so tired. blaaaaah.

i'm going to hang out with shante tomorrow so i'm looking forward to that. YAY FRIEND TIME.

blagh. bed tiems.

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I SUCK AT AIM [19 Jun 2008|09:46am]
note to leah, david, and jeremy:

sorry about not replying on aim. ; ; i accidentally left my computer on all night until i finally woke up at 12:30. i crashed on the couch at 9 and... oy. the only reason i woke up was because david called me and i just slumped into bed after turning my computer off.

i'm so sorry guys, blame my head and not my heart. ; ; plane rides make me do that, apparently.

NOW TO EAT SOME GOOD OL' AMERICAN FOOD.

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I GUESS THAT MAKES HIM A FEATHER FAG. [06 Jun 2008|12:19am]
for the brawl fans. xD part 2 is my favorite, but part 1 has its moments.





lol.

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[05 Jun 2008|07:31am]
i can't sleep. y_y

this sucks.

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you just ganked my queen, you jackass! [04 Jun 2008|11:15pm]
so. graduation rehearsal is tomorrow. not looking forward to it. mainly because it means i have to associate and put up with a mass of people that i generally cannot stand, in a facility that has kicked my ass for 4 years straight.

but whatever. it's one day closer to graduation. ;3;

i'm also excited because i've obtained the life scholarship - all of my tuition, fees and book payments are going to be taken care of at USCL. isn't that kickass? given that i stay at USCL for 2 years [which, i probably will now that i think about it], that means i could continue my major at USC with a master's and possibly have a chunk of money left over.

8D that's really awesome. my orientation is also on the 24th and the 25th. i'm... looking forward to it in the sense that i'll be taking a step forward, but it's going to suck taking all of the placement exams. xD still, i'm really excited to be going to college.

off to play internet chess or some shit now.

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qualm. q-u-a-l-....x? [04 Jun 2008|01:44pm]
err. waking up at 1pm surely is depressing. i went to bed at 11:30 last night and i still woke up this late, if that tells anyone just how shitty i've been sleeping lately. it felt so nice to actually... yanno... SLEEP. <3

now that i feel rested, i actually feel like working on things. x3

toodles.

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fuck internet chess! [04 Jun 2008|06:49am]
so i finally got my hands on tylenol cold and jesus christ i feel amazing. well, drowsy, but i can actually BREATHE out of my nose and sleep without coughing randomly. last night was the first time in a week that i was able to get more than 3 hours of sleep without waking up to snort nasal decongestant up my nose. it works, but i think it actually made it worse over time. it was ridiculous. i hate being stopped up more than anything.

this stuff is awesome. i don't like to be too reliant on cold medicines when i'm sick, but i'm glad the stuff could come through when i needed it.

i'm going back to bed now. i got up to take a shower because i didn't take one last night, so i felt icky n' couldn't sleep. night all.

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[02 Jun 2008|10:54pm]
i feel like taking a break from my brain exploding over forum stuff. i feel like drawin' some good old jak and daxter fanart... but first, i gotta download some music because i'm getting sick of my music again.

when i was working on the foamyslushie website, i was getting really discouraged because i realized that i... i really suck at web building. i mean, it really is fun designing things, but i think i feel a little overwhelmed right now. it could be just that. maybe i'll feel better about it tomorrow. i mainly spent today staring at the monitor blankly, being emo, and brainstorming. so at least i've got some ideas.

anywho. taking a break now and moving on to fanart, i think.

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eh. [30 May 2008|02:06pm]
now things are switching up as far as me being sick is concerned.

last night i was burning up with a fever of around 100 with mom deciding that she'd take me to a doctor early this morning. well, this morning the fever vanished and so did my sore throat. now, i'm congested and stopped up like crazy and it feels like typical cold symptoms. my throat is still red, and even though it felt like there was pus in the back of my throat as of last night since there was drainage of some sort, i don't think there was.

i'm not going to the doctor since i feel heaps better than i did yesterday and last night... i honestly figure that as long as the pain and the fever are gone, then it's just a cold that i have to fight off myself. i still feel like shit, but eh. comes with the whole 'sick' thing.

i'm just glad that the pain is gone. it hurt so badly. y_y; my throat felt like it was on fire... so uncomfortable.

i didn't end up going for the job application today, either. i've been sleeping all day since i didn't sleep last night too well. which i guess was stupid, but i won't even be able to start working steadily in the first place until 4 weeks from now. i guess i could begin training or something in the odd chance that they actually call me immediately, but i'd just be leaving soon for 2 weeks anyway. :/

i also just realized that i've got so much to do this coming week... i won't be around to take calls from people or try and play phone tag as far as getting a job is concerned, as i'll be graduating, packing for the trip and just living my life for a bit. hopefully i can find a job when i get back in mid june. everything will be settled down by then. surely i can land a job somewhere...

going back to sleep nao. y_y

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sick ;3; [29 May 2008|10:54pm]
augh. i'm so sick, i seriously think i have strep. y_y; i really hope not, but... i have 3 out of the 4 symptoms.

a) glands are swollen.
b) i have a fever.
c) that whole sore throat thing.

:CCCC

at least i'm going to hopefully fill out an application tomorrow. i really am excited!

but ugh, christ. i feel like pooooooop. :C

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FREEEEEEEEDOM [28 May 2008|12:08pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

yeah, so it hasn't entirely hit me that i'm out of highschool forever now, but at the same time it has. i still have kendrick's books all over my room and chandler's homework dispersed in nice little piles of chaotic mess. :/ whuuuut?

i'm... not so sure what i should be doing with myself right now. i feel like i have to e-mail a paper to someone or finish a project. ERGH.

my mom wants me to do an assload of cleaning today, but quite frankly, i'd rather bask in my own awesomeness and just doodle.

i got burnt again yesterday, too. it was so damn HOT outside... me and david probably swam for like, 4 or 5 hours straight. it hasn't been that hot yet this year. holy lord. and with that came sunburn, so i look like a mixture between a lobster and a native american because i'm already tanned.

man. i feel more confident now that my skin is starting to clear up, too. i used to get bumps on my back from my cracked out sebaceous glands not knowing when to stop secreting oil, therefore causing a form on acne throughout my back. and i don't know if anyone's aware of this, but getting rid of acne is stupidly difficult and it isn't achieved by just cleaning. it's actually hereditary, and i got it terribly. it's a pain in the ass, and i hate it, so i'm glad it's starting to clear up on its own. i feel more comfortable wearing less makeup and wearing tank tops that show off my back more.

i feel like roller coaster tycooning.

I CAN ACTUALLY DO THAT NOW. :D

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lollololololloolol [26 May 2008|06:31pm]
i'm pretty much exhausted. i've been shopping all weekend for dresses to wear for the summer and other new clothes, and when i haven't been doing that, i've been cleaning a bunch, or i've been with david.

my mom got me a coach purse as a graduation present. @_@ it's so badass, i love it. but i can't have it just yet, i'll get to see it again in about 2 weeks. but it's pretty big. the perfect size. X3 i'll never buy another purse again, seriously.

i also got 4 dresses this weekend. just little cotton dresses and sun dresses. dresses are much cheaper and easier to wear during the summer vs. pants, and this year i'll much prefer light dresses over heavy denim shorts or pants. i also got a nice graduation dress that doubles as a dress for special occasions and stuff. my wardrobe is maxed out now, and i've got a nice array of both winter clothes and summer clothes now. no moar clothes for me!

i also cleaned my art room today. i tried something that i haven't done in years, and that is take my laptop off of my desk and instead, place my prisma supplies on the desk. i seriously think that since i've had my laptop on my desk, it's gotten in the way of my productivity because i'll just sit there and fart around the internets all day instead of doing artwork like i used to do. i haven't done this in about 2 years, so i'm excited to actually try this to see if it works. maybe then i'll actually be productive and focused, and hopefully i'll enjoy doing artwork like i used to.

now, i'm only using my laptop when i'm laying around in bed or in the evenings when i feel like unwinding. any idle time spent will be at my desk making artwork.

i hope this works!

i also saw a cute DS case at the mall that i wanted... DS games are so tiny, i need something to keep them in! @_@

artwork tiem is nao. :3

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blah [26 May 2008|12:04pm]
i'm mildly freaking out over tomorrow since it's my last day, but i'm only going in for an hour.

i need to go talk to Ms. D about the trip, and i can do that since she has first block planning, but i don't know if she'll actually be there. :/

i also need to return my books, but i don't know if the bookroom is open between blocks. and it's pretty much a "need to turn them in today or else i'm fucking screwed" situation.

ergh. what.

yeah.

i also need to go to my locker to get my english textbook to turn in, buuuuut i've not used my locker since the first day of school and i'm not sure of the combination. x_x; lawl. jesus fucking christ.

nooooot to mention the anatomy exam that i have to take tomorrow. i'm gonna make a crappy grade on that shit.

y_y fawk.

i'll make another entry later on my weekend.

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[23 May 2008|08:24pm]
today was bittersweet... we didn't do anything first block, took a test and did well on it second block, hung out in chandler's room during lunch and i think i aced his exam, and we didn't have an exam 4th block.

but yeah. my last day in chandler's class was today. i can't believe i've been in his class for almost 2 years. where did the damn time go? it was seriously hilarious but i know i'm going to miss that class. anyway, i made it out with a 94 on my book review and made the highest grade on the writing yet again. our exam was the practice exam he gave us awhile back before the AP exam and i actually studied it, so it was a pleasant surprise.

eeeeergh, fuck, this is semi-depressing. i can't wait to go to college, but i'm going to miss my AP classes. ;3; boo.

i dunno what i got in chandler's class for the year... probably a B. which i'm ok with.

i got to hang out with david after school today, too... even though he was really irritable all day from being sick. i guess i don't blame him. i just wish he wouldn't snap at me sometimes. ._.

i'm not used to... not having homework. @_@; i dunno what to do with myself.

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[22 May 2008|02:12pm]
well, last day of kendrick's class was today, and i made it out with a 91 for the year. but because it's a dual credit course, it ultimately goes down as an A for the year. i'm extremely happy, but i'm gonna miss the class. i learned an assload. i kinda wish i could've told him that, but i think he knows that a lot of got a lot of good things from the class. i know i hated the class at the beginning of the year, but all of the stress was worth it and i'll keep using what i learned from him all throughout college. i feel like i'm 8 steps ahead from taking this class, and it's a good feeling. i know that the 12 of us will be more prepared than just about any other freshmen in college this coming semester, even if some don't exactly realize it.

i'm also exempting my statistics exam; it's official. that's one less thing i have to worry about. but i still don't know about my freakin' anatomy class... i doubt i'll be exempting. the chances are slim. at least i get to sleep in a little on tuesday.

it's kind of hard to believe that my last full day of school is tomorrow. jesus.

tonight i'm gonna chill with david and take care of him, cuz now he's sick with some kind of upper respiratory infection that came out of nowhere. :C he just got over being sick about a week ago. boooooo.

i think i'm going to nap now. this class sucks ass.

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[21 May 2008|02:28pm]
i always hate the last week before the end of the school year... you know you're going to miss a lot of people and it kind of stings. i'm going to miss my AP classes like crazy. i just wish i could get past this transition. it sucks especially badly this year. i guess because i know i won't be coming back.

:/

i'm gonna miss ms. D and chandler and kendrick and shaw the most.

i've been really moody lately too. it's wearing me out and i know it's getting on david's nerves. i'm just really dying to get out of school. every little last minute thing is grinding at my nerves, and i'm ready to get through with exams and graduation stuff so i can move on.

i'unno... i'm just tired. doesn't help that we watched saving private ryan in chandler's. that's a movie you need to watch if you want to bring your overall contentment down about 8 notches, and it does it every time.

i think i'm slightly overwhelmed at just exactly how busy i'm going to be for two weeks.

y______y;

i need a hug.

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[20 May 2008|03:27pm]
sorry for the input towards the fangirl maniac, kai. i know it wasn't wanted; i apologize. ;3;

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fjkldajfklda; [20 May 2008|02:05pm]
yeah, i have less than a week of school left, thank GAWD. i'm just about done with everything. senior t-shirts also came in today, and they look pretty awesome. they look better than i expected them to look. i've been pretty nervous about it this whole time, but i'm glad they're in and i'm glad it's over.

i also had to attend awards night last night, and i got the outstanding art award again for the 3rd year in a row. i was disappointed in a way though, because i thought i'd actually get a core acedemic award this year, but i fell a little short. oh well. at least my grades are still great.

i also submitted my final transcript request form to guidance, so i should be squared away for USC-L soon enough, and that makes me pretty excited.

i got EXTREMELY annoyed second block though. we had to basically research a disease for my anatomy class and give a presentation on it. well, one girl did psoriasis and made it sound like anyone who had it was a diseased, filthy creature. i was furious. she had the most grotesque photos, and she didn't know jack shit about the disease. it was halfway embarrassing for me because i actually have the disease, but it wasn't wholly embarrassing because it's not like anyone knows i have it. i just sat there shaking my head and explained to people in the back that it's not always as serious as the presenter was making it out to be.

i'm not saying that there aren't severe cases of psoriasis that people have trouble with, but it's not filthy, nor serious, nor contagious in the way that poison ivy is. she basically said that 'if you get this, you'll look like this disgusting person with open sores all over their body.'

lawl. not so likely.

i have psoriasis. it is irritating. but i'm generally a representation of many people who have it, but are not filthy, on the contrary. i also have it on a very small part of my body, on the back of my scalp, and no, it does not spread like the plague, and it is treatable.

moreover, people began making fun of a girl in one of their classes who actually had it more severely than i, in places that are difficult to hide. i HATE that. that's so disrespectful and degrading.

yeah. i just... i hate that. y_y

i want this week to be ovaaaaaar! ;_;

i hate ignorant bastards.

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that's what i call a SCARY MURPHY [17 May 2008|11:12pm]


:D

i had a really good day today. i went shopping again with some money i saved up and bought some nice clothes. david came with me to help me pick out clothes because sadly, his fashion sense is better than mine. but i'm not complaining, it was a fun day. we also went to gamestop to oogle games. i want paper mario wii. ; ; BADLY. and metroid. and twilight princess. AND SO MANY OTHER THINGS. ; ; boo!

yeah, it's bed time, enjoy the rest of your weekend, folks! only one week of school left for me! 8D

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not doing so well [14 May 2008|09:15pm]
i'm extremely tired of just about everything right now. at least dad's back home.

the main thing looming over my head is an anatomy presentation on friday. i don't know why it's bothering me so much, but it is. i guess because i loathe the class. oh well.
after this week is over with, everything will be fine again, i hope. next week is my last full week of school. ;_;

but... yea. things aren't going so well at the moment. i think i annoy everybody around me, especially david. ._. i feel like disappearing until school's out.

i just feel like trying to draw something.

i haven't drawn in weeks... y_y maybe i'll try doodling something now before bed.

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hospital and meme [13 May 2008|09:43pm]
my dad had a prostate operation today that no one bothered to tell me about until last night, so i was freaking out and hoping it wasn't anything serious. i won't disclose the details but he's doing alright, i got to see him today after school and i stayed at the hospital for about 2 hours.

i know i talk shit about my dad a lot and i know he pisses me off more than anything sometimes, but i really do love my dad. my dad's seriously the best and sometimes i forget about all of the shit he has to go through, like his polymyalgia pains, the pains from his two fake hips, the destruction on his body from the steroids he has to take to keep the myalgia pains from occurring, not to mention working 12 hour days 6 days a week most weeks on his hands and knees crawling around and fixing stuff and working on machines. i mean, seriously? my dad kicks serious ass and could rip anyone a new one without even trying, and he's probably one of the smartest people i know despite his abounding pessimism.

then again, i guess i don't blame him for being somewhat pessimistic, since he lost his 10 year old brother to a speeding truck right before his eyes, had to deal with the schizophrenics of his crazy family, not to mention having to raise me and jimmy. jimmy and i aren't exactly hellraisers [well... jimmy might be, lmao] but we're enough to take care of.

i dunno. seeing my dad today was the highlight of my day. i had a crappy day at school, and i wish he'd come home right now. he'll be home tomorrow though.

*sigh*

now i have a revision to write. i had a crappy day at school but i really don't feel like writing about it. seeing my dad made me forget about it. lawl.

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[11 May 2008|10:56pm]
i hate being sun burnt. ; ; my skin feels like its on fire. at least i'm... tanned? yeah. fail.

now that my huge exams are over, i'm basically just going through the motions with school and not giving a crap about anything anymore. man, this feels good. lulz. I'VE BEEN WAITING SO LONG FOR THIS. ; ;

2-ish more weeks. ;_;

2-ISH MOAR WEEEEEKS.

and my glasses came in today. they're awesome. pix later.

i've been revisiting the old star fox whore in me. i get tired of a bunch of stuff, but dammit, i'll never get tired of star fox. i don't bother to go too deep into the fandom, as that's where the krystal balloon-tits fanboys linger most, but there's still some good stuff out there.

star fox stole my soul, man. mad love, mad love.

bed time. i have stats homework, but fuck it.

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eeer... [10 May 2008|10:21pm]
i have some major wtf issues with my adapter.

i calibrated the controls already, but when i open 1964, it's still sucking ass and not identifying my controller. and 1964 fucks everything up anyway, so i switched to project 64.

project 64 works like a charm, but it still doesn't identify my adapter, but it'll let me play star fox via the controls on the keyboard.

er.

why is this, plz? it like, SHOWS the controller, but it doesn't... work... and i know the controller itself isn't fucked, and the adapter seems to work ok...

anybody have any suggestions? i've been playing the game like hell with the keyboard and it's actually pretty easy, i just really hate to think that i've wasted 15 bucks on this shit. :/

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AP exams [09 May 2008|11:46pm]
yeeeeah. AP exams. about those.

i think i failed my english one. seriously, it whooped my ass. i thought i was so prepared, i was upset when i began panicking on all of the writing sections - and those are my strengths. :C it was so hard, and i'm so afraid of the results. kendrick is so sure that i'm going to pass it, and it'll be a huge slap in the face if i don't. i can't believe how hard it was.

european history, on the other hand, was shit easy! and THIS was the one i was scared about in the beginning! i finished all of my essays early and i wrote the hell out of that DBQ. i was afraid of the FRQ's since i've only ever done like, 2 of those in my life, but i beasted those too. i feel really good about this one. i hope i pass. ; ; i didn't pass U.S. last year, i was one point off. ergh!

either way though, as long as i'm passing my classes, i'll get 6 hours of credit for each class. which i'm passing with both an A and a B for the classes, so... that's in the bag.

i'm so tired, exams kicked my ass. bluh.

in other news, star fox and yoshi's island and dixie kong's double trouble are now on my computer, so i have no reason to be bored this weekend. xD i'm waiting for my adapter to come in the mail so i can play SF 64... ERGH. HURRY AMAZON.

also, i've decided on a graduation present. [i know, my parents are actually going to get me one. @_@; i'm already going to europe, wtf.] all i really want are... games. xD i want paper mario, namely. maybe something for my DS. other than that... i'm ok, really. maybe mom will get me a coach purse or something. that'd be neat. but all i rly want are teh gaemz. @_@

yeeeeah. bed nao. i got david addicted to yoshi's island and star fox again. xD lawl.

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[07 May 2008|11:03pm]
OWT IN DA STREETS DEY CALL IT MUUUUUUURDERDER.

ap exam tomorrow.

need luck. ; ;

goodnight!

i am so happy. <3

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suck [06 May 2008|02:06pm]
um. i suck ass. i had an extended essay due today so now i have to bullshit it when i get home. seriously, i've been so damn absent-minded lately that it's ridiculous. shit like this would break me if my teacher's honestly didn't give a shit. lulz.

i was geeking the hell out last night though. i was looking for star fox emulators and i have one downloaded for 64 but i need a joystick of some sort to play it... so i might swing by best buy sometime this week to pick up a cheapy one. however, the sound input is fucked up so i might have to download another version of it... if anybody knows of a good place to download really good ROMs and emulators, feel free to suggest. i really feel like getting a whole lot of gaming in. lol.

in the meantime, i think i'll just download the SNES starfox version instead. i've never actually played it but it looks badass.

i was youtubing all night last night with david too. god, we find some hilarious shit. then again, our sense of humor ranges from 5 year old fart noises and certain words revolving around genitalia to mature satirical comedies. I DON'T KNOW WHAT THIS IS.

i'm going to play star fox on my DS nao. i love these damn games. <3

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HOW TO POOP [05 May 2008|09:43pm]
[ mood | chipper ]



LAUGHING MY FUCKING ASS OFF, OK.

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drrr [03 May 2008|09:36pm]
weaserpuff took the SATs again this morning from 8 until 1. i think i beasted it.
then i had an eye exam at 3:30... i got new emo glasses. they're cute.
and church immediately after that.

zero. SLEEP.

and i miss david. it's pathetic how much i miss him sometimes, i just end up going in circles and curling up in a ball wishing i could see him. guh. jesus. if you guys could see how awesome he is, you'd probably miss him too. xD

i'm going to prod alecks on AIM nao.

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hell yes [02 May 2008|02:08pm]
i'm on top of the damn world today, man.

i'm making a 95 in statistics and i just got through writing two timed essays in kendrick's class, and i made a 93 on one of them, first draft. PELVIC THRUST, MAN. i think i beasted my anatomy quiz too, and i turned in just about everything i needed to turn in today.

today's a pretty good day. i'm gonna go swimmin' with david this afternoon. JOI!

now i can just sleep without stuff looming over my head now. yay.

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OMG SHEWZ [30 Apr 2008|02:21pm]
i got my shoes yesterday. they were so trendy that allie now wants me to buy her some online with her paying me back. lawl. i love these shoes.

i really have nothing to update on other than i have so many deadlines this week and next that i'm about to go crazy. all i have to do is make it past this week and next week, and then after that i'm pretty much done with school. it feels so surreal that it's all coming up so quickly. but i'm not complaining.

nap tiemz now.

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WHOAAAA. YOU CAN FEEL IT YEEEEAH. [27 Apr 2008|08:31pm]
[ music | rythym is a dancer - blackbox ]

i read Night.

it's... it didn't shake me up a bit. i'm disappointed in a sense, honestly.
well... not disappointed... it just wasn't nearly as 'gripping' as it was described to me.
it was alright, though. it definitely had its moments where i just froze and went "holy shit, that's disgusting and awful." it was too short, but i guess that's why there are two other books after Night as well. xD

i might order the other two... i'm not sure.

i guess it's kind of hard to be shaken by other holocaust stories after having read "the seamstress" by sara [seren] tuvel. that book is fucking intense. it caused my stomach to turn, and it moved me to tears even after reading it about 6 times. i guess it's not exactly a good thing... but it had a happy ending above all that happened. xD i recommend it to other people who have an odd interest for the holocaust like i do.

but yeah, at least i have something for my euro book review now, and i do have a good book to add in my very tiny collection of novels.

i feel like doodling now. ; ; i think i will. *nod*

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sick [27 Apr 2008|05:07pm]
i feel nauseous and generally blah. i think i got car sick. i feel like i'm gonna hurl any minute... i really wish dad would stop taking backroads everywhere we go. the interstate is your FRIEND. ; ; i don't get car sick on the INTERSTAAATE.

anywho, i got Night in the mail yesterday while i was gone, so i... think i'm going to start reading it now, although i know it'll just depress the hell out of me.

oh well.

at least i'll be doing something productive.

tata, kids.

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